This morning I decided to postpone Deep Magic Love. After checking in with my heart and my gut over the weekend, I just knew that opening it now wasn’t the right time. I wanted the feeling to go away. To not be true. As I sat in front of my altar, I prayed for guidance. I kept hearing this voice I didn’t want to hear: “It’s not the right time. People need time and space. You need time and space. Slow down.”
This decision was probably one of the hardest choices I’ve ever made in my business. And it’s not easy to write this. My heart is heavy and I feel tears welling up in my eyes. The women who had already signed up, and the community space I envisioned, are so very dear to me.
The world changed a week ago and I think I did too. As I wrote to a friend this morning, perhaps it wasn’t the world that changed overnight but that we’re seeing the hurt and pain that has always been there in a more focused way. As a highly sensitive empath I feel it so deeply. And feeling in, I realized that some space to collect ourselves is a good thing. On the heels of a contentious election and the holidays coming up it just wasn’t the right time.
I’ve been spending a lot of time cuddling with my cats, reading books, drinking tea, connecting with the earth, and sitting on my cushion. I come out of this experience more dedicated than ever to embodying compassionate spiritual leadership and loving action. It feels like my whole life has been leading to this moment.
Here’s a quote from Jack Kornfield I took great comfort in this morning. He’s so awesome, and it’s actually how I approach Priestessing:
“When times are uncertain, difficult, fearful, full of change, they become the perfect place to deepen the practice of awakening. After viewing the elections, whatever your point of view, take time to quiet the mind and tend to the heart. Then go out and look at the sky. Remember vastness, there are seasons to all things, gain and loss, praise and blame, expansion and contraction. Learn from the trees. Practice equanimity and steadiness. Remember the timeless Dharma amidst it all. Think of the best of human goodness. Let yourself become a beacon of integrity with your thoughts, words and deeds. Integrity in speech and action, virtue and non-harming brings blessings.”
Thank you for taking the time to read this,
Sending you Love and Blessings!